Category Archives: fear

Joy is {a God sized Dreams post}

My pastor reminded us this week that we tend to confuse joy and happiness.

Happiness is an external circumstance dependent fleeting feeling.  Joy is an internal, eternal gift that comes from our Heavenly Father.

Joy can be found in the midst of the midst of the painful.  True joy transcends circumstance so it is not dependent on success or approval or accomplishment or reciprocation, joy simply is.


The path to our God sized dreams has as much to do with the journey as the end result.  God is not waiting for us at the end of the finish line- He is walking the path with us.  The Source of true joy is right beside you every step of the way.

And that truth, my friends, makes my heart smile.

Will you join me and all the other God sized dreamers at


Putting Fear Away- A God sized Dreams Post

It was awkward. Stiff. It wasn’t the throw me up in the air and let me think I’m going to fall, then catch me at the last minute type of hugs he gave when I was a little girl. It wasn’t the comforting arms that soothed my tears and hurt feelings. But, it was oneContinue Reading

An Anecdote of Fear and Angels

When I realized that the only parking available was in a several story parking garage, I felt sick to my stomach.  Parking garages and I do not get along.  I feel like the top of any vehicle I am in is going to be shorn off or that the entire thing is going to collapseContinue Reading

Trust when the way seems unclear

This coming Monday I start a new job. A full time 9-5 J-O-B. It is the right thing for my family and I have peace about the decision. God hasn’t shown me the {full} why of it all quite yet. I like to know the “why”, y’all. It is hard for a recovering Type-A likeContinue Reading

When shadows are swirling

Back in the spring of 2006, God put a strong call on my life.  I argued with Him (while crying, laughing and driving down a dangerous stretch of highway).  I told Him He definitely had the wrong girl.  But, God can be persistent (in case you didn’t know that). Fast forward four and a halfContinue Reading

Not wasting a story

How did a girl of nineteen, mama to two under two, take on another, wounded and broken, as her own? God’s grace. How did a family grow, through the pain and the twisted knife of fate, closer together rather than achingly apart? God’s grace. How did a woman break free from the bondage of silenceContinue Reading

There’s no place like home

There are days when I want nothing more than to curl up on the bench swing bolted to my grandparent’s dock, with a hot cup of tea and the blue fuzzy blanket, and watch the sun come up over the Chesapeake Bay. But, that is not possible right now. There are four teenagers and aContinue Reading

Fear Not

Fear wraps sticky tentacles around my heart. I try to wrench free of the grasp in my own strength.  I fret, worry, run through worst case scenarios and forget that this wrestling against the fear is sin. God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.  Therefore we will not fear, thoughContinue Reading

Flesh and Blood and Tears

It was a burnt bridge.  Charred by the chasm of bitterness, hatred and anger that had simmered for years. “Good” reasons to maintain my unforgiving heart. I had been let down, hurt, abused, disappointed, neglected, abandoned and wounded by this person.  This person that was supposed to protect me from all those things. My dad.Continue Reading

Is this my kid?

He is his father’s child. In possession of the calm-no-matter-the-circumstance sort of way that is stable and solid. His voice on the phone did not even waver as he said “Mama, I can’t see anything out of my left eye“. I had to ask if he was serious, such normal tone and timbre. He wasContinue Reading