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Watching My Words

I don’t know why I choose to observe Lent because I’m terrible at it. Fasting from something for 40 days is apparently not my strong suit. I remember one of the first times I observed Lent I gave up sweet tea. Yes, that sounds silly but I had a habit of going through the Mickey D’s drive thru a few times A DAY. It was a thing. What I purposed to do that year was that every time I thought about driving to get a large sweet tea, I would instead turn to God in prayer. God and I talked a lot more and I learned an important lesson.

Sometimes our routines can become our enemies.

Hitting the drive thru for a sweet tea was a habit, a routine. So, this year when I was praying about what I needed to give up for the Lenten season, I shouldn’t have been surprised that another habit came to mind. It came to mind along with this verse:

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. Ephesians 4:29.

I can be quite lazy with my mouth. Negativity spews out sometimes. Ugly words when I’m frustrated. Sharp words when I’m mad. Unnecessary words when I’m bored. Many times,if I’m completely honest,  my words are not helpful or building others up. My tone and my facial expressions  don’t help much either.

What you say flows from what is in your heart. Luke 6:45

Whoa! Did you read that? What I say is a reflection of my heart.

Y’all, that is not good.

If you walked into my home unannounced when the stress of a long day combined with the craziness of the bed time hour has pushed me towards the edge…it’s not good. When I am in the passenger seat while my son is in the drivers seat…it’s not good.

Hence, why God probably has me focusing on that the next forty days, huh?

I’ve solicited the assistance of the hubby, the 10 year old and the 5 year old as well. If they hear me complaining or saying not-so-nice things, I will be putting a quarter in a jar. At the end, we will cash it in and send the total to the FSP of an adorable waiting child on the Reece’s Rainbow site.

As I’m trying to catch such things before they come out of my mouth, God and I will be talking a lot. Like a lot. Which, in essence, is the goal of observing Lent in the first place (which we will be talking about here in the days to come).

May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart, be pleasing in your sight, Lord; my Rock and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14

Is there something you feel led to give up for Lent?


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