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Ebb and Flow of Life

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This has been one of those weeks that simulated a roller coaster for my emotions.  Up, down, upside down, shoot back up.

I’m not a roller coaster type of gal.  All of that can leave this mama exhausted in every way possible.

Our weekend was full.  Of learning, of fellowship, of family fun.

The speaker at the retreat we attended was speaking right to my heart and situation. How to hear God, how to really hear what He is saying to me and how He is saying it.  A verse shared that confirmed an exciting realization.

The enemy knows when change is taking place in my heart and attempted to thwart the momentum.  The attempt was momentarily successful but through journaling, tears and prayer I got back on track.

Then, as I already shared, Monday was a super special day for our family.

Life resumed it’s hectic pace with ministry, meetings and physical therapy.  Driving the mom taxi.  More personal attack.  Order Sweet Pea’s birthday cake.  Coffee with a friend.  Typing up information for grants. Texting with teen mama’s.  Planning an upcoming Bible study.  Hurtful backlash from Monday’s announcement.  The thrill of launching my first eBook Bible study.

The high of seeing this sweet baby eating her first birthday cake

 

Sweet Pea's 1st birthday

The wonder of 19 teen moms attending our first YoungLives club of the school year last night.  The laughter, the games, the hugs {those girls have no idea how privileged they should feel to get to hug me, the non-huggingist woman on the planet}..it was a good-in-an-exhausting-kind-of-way, laugh-till-you-pee-your-pants type of night.

 

Then there is the discomfort of my past colliding with the present before I feel ready or prepared. And, I can’t say much more than that right now.

Another day of physical therapy {I’m making progress, y’all}, meetings, squeezing in a much needed eyebrow wax and preparing for Sweet Pea’s princess themed birthday bash tomorrow.

I am feeling empty.  Sucked dry like parched ground waiting for rain.

Where are You, God?  I was getting ready to wave my finger in His Almighty face because He felt further and further away as the week progressed.  And, He reminded me, through an image of a toddler climbing up their Daddy’s pant leg, that He was right there.  I was the one that was ebbing away.

I just needed to be willing to scale anything to get to Him.  To not let the distractions of life distract me from Him.  To not let hurt and disappointment keep me away.  To not let good things hold me back from the Best thing.

Living Water flows when we abide in Him.

Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,  but whose delight is in the law of the LORD, and who meditates on his law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither— whatever they do prospers.  Not so the wicked! They are like chaff that the wind blows away.  Psalm 1: 1-4

This weekend, I am stepping away from the ebb and flow, from the distractions of this crazy life and delighting myself in time with my Lord, every chance I can make. I am cutting through the clutter in my heart, mind and circumstance.

It is just what this weary mama’s heart and soul needs.

Do you need time with your Lord?

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Learning as you go

Most weekdays, on the way home from driving Miss S. to school, I find myself behind a slow moving red car. The sign in the back window states “student driver”. I was finding myself annoyed that {seemingly} every stinkin’ morning, I got stuck behind these kids that don’t have a clue what they are doingContinue Reading

thirty two

Birthdays mean more when you come close to not having another. The shift in perspective from not wanting to get older to being excited that God has granted another year on this earth. It is life changing. Not everyone gets that.  And that is okay. But I get it. and so birthdays, like yesterday, fullContinue Reading

Happy Birthday, Jared

You are confident. You are social. You are proud. You are moody. You are intelligent. You are funny. You are generous. You are friendly. You are industrious. You are passionate. You are…. a lot like your mama. Which is why we bump heads and disagree and say we are sorry and move on until theContinue Reading

He’s My Son

Chubby little fingers find their way into my hand. His (almost) three year old little self pulls me energetically towards the kittens down the hall… “Tome on mommy, let’s go look at the kitties” (except he said his hard c’s and k’s like t’s so you can imagine how comical that was).  The fact thatContinue Reading

Birthdays with the family

Join in the fun at Momdot and The Not so Blog, Blog. One of today’s questions is What was the best part of a past birthday that you shared with your kids? Well, last night my hubby and boys took me out for an early birthday dinner (Jared has a basketball game tomorrow night andContinue Reading

My Kiddo’s first birthdays

Stop by Momdot and The Not so Blog, Blog for more fun and chances to win great prizes! I am still playing along for my birthday week and today we are invited to tell the story of our children’s first birthdays. ~As I adopted Jason I wasn’t there for his first birthday but his firstContinue Reading

Happy Birthday to…..

Okay friends- I turn the big 3-0 this Thursday. Imagine my glee when I found a bloggy party for birthday girls going on this week at Momdot and The Not So Blog,Blog(in honor of their daughters, not me- but hey a blogger can stretch the rules). So, go visit these blogs- say Happy Birthday toContinue Reading