Fatigue and Faith {a #chronicallywell post}

 

Hi friends- if you regularly read here you know I don’t spend a lot of time talking about living with lupus and other diagnosis’ related issues. However, this month I am taking part in The Nester’s 31 Days of…series and writing on the topic 31 Days to Living Well with Chronic Illness {#chronicallywell}.  If this subject matter does not relate to you or the life of someone you love, please come back November 1st for the launch of my latest eBook: Cutting Through Heart Clutter! I appreciate your patience!

31daysButtonOn Sundays during this 31 day series I am going to share a post from my archives.  This post was written 3 1/2 years ago {time flies!} but the truths still apply today.

I am tired.

The kind of tired that you feel in your bone marrow.  The kind of tired that no one understands if they do not have chronic illness.  The kind of tired that isn’t phased by a three hour nap.

I have a tendency to push myself.  Goes back to the whole recovering Type A, over achieving, perfection seeking sinner that I am in the flesh.  Frustration creeps in, its sneaky, sticky fingers wrapping around my thoughts.

All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.  My heart pounds, my strength fails me; even the light has gone from my eyes. {Psalm 38:9-10}

Hot tears of irritation burn my eyes.  I don’t want to be so tired. I don’t want to be sick.  I don’t want to live like this.

Not because I feel like I deserve better. Not because I think it’s unfair. But because I could do and accomplish and help so much more if…

And, I come full circle in this cycle of fatigue, frustration and faith.

For here is the truth:

My desire to “do” for God is unnecessary.  A burden I place on myself.  For what God wants is me.  And, time and time again I prove that the only way to reach me is to slow me down.  So He does.  And, eventually I yield to His desire for me to just be.

Not do.  Not accomplish.  Not help.

Just be.

Be still and know that I am God. {Psalm 46:10}

Today, I am unwrapping the gift that is multiple sclerosis and systemic lupus.  The gift of chronic fatigue that forces allows me moments to just be with my God.

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Fatigue is a part of living with chronic illness that can’t be escaped but there are things we can do to manage it.  We will talk about this more throughout the series.

 

Comments

  1. Me too. I’m feeling fatigue these days. That’s why I look up to Him for guidance and support.
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