I have a {God-Sized} Dream

A few months ago, I hit send on an application to be a part of Holley Gerth’s God-Sized Dream Team.

I didn’t expect to make it through and literally squealed when I was one of the 99 women chosen.

The program has blessed my socks off over the past few weeks and we are just getting started!  I even found an accountability partner for my 5k aspirations and we ended up living close enough to each other that we are going to run together monthly and {how God is this?} run our first 5k together in April!! I love the way God ordains connections {and if you don’t believe He uses social media for good, you are missing out!}

We are supposed to share- unveil- reveal our God sized dream today.

Confession time- I am scared to death to type it out.

I live it out every day but to type it out makes me feel vulnerable and exposed.  But, fear is the opposite of faith and I know that.  Just because I feel afraid doesn’t mean I have to give in to that feeling.  Faith, like love, is a verb, an action word.

Today is my 34th birthday.  Another birthday I almost didn’t live to see. I promised God in 2008 that I wasn’t going to allow fear to paralyze me.  So, I am typing out my God-sized dream in the form of a prayer.

God, I am beyond grateful to have lived another year. Every day is a gift from You and I don’t want to waste a single one.  You know my heart and You know the dreams You have breathed into my soul. The dream to write words on a page that make a difference for You, to pound out my heart on a keyboard with the promise that You will redeem my stories for good, according to Your purpose and for the comfort of others going through the same thing.  To share those words in person as you see fit, to spread Your message of hope and redemption to those feeling they are beyond salvation.  I dream the God-sized dream of humbly following Your lead in taking these words wherever You would have them go and finally {after four years of talking myself out of it} submitting my manuscript for publication and offering my voice as a speaker to bring that message to others.  God, You know that I haven’t spoken publicly in over a year.  You know that has been in direct disobedience to Your call on my life and that I have even turned down invitations because of the F word- fear.  Please forgive me for listening to the lie that I am unworthy of Your call and not good enough to be used by Almighty God.  I am worthy because of You, good enough because of You.  My God-sized dream is to walk through that fear straight into Your will.  Use me for whatever, whenever. I am wholeheartedly committing {publically} to walk through the fear no matter what or where You lead.  Every day that You give me, I’m Yours. In Your Precious Son’s Name, Amen.

God-Sized Dreams

So I am hitting publish before I change my mind.
Has God laid a dream on your heart? I would love to pray for you! 

 

One Response to I have a {God-Sized} Dream

  1. Amy says:

    I did my first and last 5K last March at the age of 42 after a total knee replacement. The only way I was able to finish was the encouragement of some dear friends. They were all mature runners and finished way ahead of me but they all came back for me and didn’t leave me. I know you can do it, too!!!

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