Being sick is not fun but I choose joy

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I am a positive person.  I believe that everything in life happens for a reason and that I can do all things through Him who gives me strength {Romans 8:28, Philippians 4:13}.

But, I have to admit there are days and times that being chronically ill brings me down, way down.

It probably doesn’t help that I have had three surgeries in four months, have been mobility challenged since a fall in March and had to stop taking my MS therapy since my liver wasn’t cooperating back in January.

August has found me bitter most days.  Each day has felt like I am trying to walk in quicksand…I am brought down and frustrated far too easily.  Distractions have been fewer as well since Miss S and Sweet Pea were away at summer camp and my two younger boys were spending time with my grandparents.

Working on the eBook {that I can not wait to share with y’all} I have spent a lot of time in Philippians.  And a verse {that has nothing to do with the eBook} struck a chord in my heart:

For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him,  since you are going through the same struggle you saw I had, and now hear that I still have. ~ Philippians 1: 29-30

Why is it so easy to forget that the hard things, the struggles are gifts too? If I began to list the things God has taught me since I became ill, the miracles He has performed in my life and the lives of those around me- not in spite of my illness but because of it, through it, you would be amazed.

and then this:

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! ~ Philippians 4:4

Matthew Henry’s Commentary says this about the joy referred to in this verse:

Joy in God is of great consequence in the Christian life; and Christians need to be again and again called to it. It more than outweighs all causes for sorrow. Let their enemies perceive how moderate they were as to outward things, and how composedly they suffered loss and hardships.

Joy “more than outweighs all causes for sorrow.”

How many times do I use fatigue, pain, inability as an excuse to choose defeat rather than joy?  To choose self-pity instead of joy?

Far too often, my friends.

The enemy would like nothing better than to keep me in the bitter pit, cranky and unsettled like the dog days of August.

But, God!

He won’t let me stay there.  He wants me to choose joy.

Always.

God always wants me to choose joy.

Lord,  You have granted me this struggle.  You granted me this struggle with the command to also rejoice.  I have not been good at looking at the situation through the lens of joy this month.  Forgive me and help me sing a new song, one of joy and gratitude to You.  Forgive me for looking away from You and staring at my circumstances.  I rejoice in Your plan, Your sovereignty and Your promises.  ~ Amen.

Has something stolen your joy?  Please leave a comment and I will pray for you!

 

 

 

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