Feeling Loved

I came across this old blog post of mine (circa 1/6/09) from a blog I don’t have anymore and thought the post beared repeating.

Sometimes the biggest obstacle to me feeling loved is ME.

I’m a smart gal.  I know intellectually that God loves me, all my sins have been forgiven and have even been cast into the sea of forgetfulness- wait.  That’s the problem

I need a sea of forgetfulness for myself.

Do you ever do that?  Beat yourself up for things you did, mistakes you made a looong time ago that really bear no resemblance to the choices you make today?

I can’t be the only one…

In my teenage years I was a rebellious, bitter girl.  I had every “right” to be angry, according to the world.

Thankfully God got ahold of me when I was 19 and I have been His ever since.  Yet all this time later (11 years for those that are counting) I can still get caught up in the self doubt and self judgement of those things that I did then.

Shame can creep up on me and hinder me from pursuing something I feel God calling me to do.  That shame can render me stagnant. 

Which, I believe, is the enemy’s plan.

The reason we don’t forget the things that have happened in our lives is that we are meant to use our experiences for good (or allow God to).  We are to mentor and encourage otheres who may be going through similar trials.

But, the enemy is there to whisper in your ear “you can’t be a credible witness”, “people wouldn’t like you if they knew XYZ”..

The great thing about our Savior is that He gave us the prescription for curing this problem right in His word. 

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he (or she) is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come.  II Corinthians 5:17

So, friend, when you are having trouble accepting the love of Christ into your life and feeling like the cherished child of God that you are, turn off those old scripts from the enemy and replace them with the love, grace and mercy our Heavenly Father longs to lavish on you.



  1. Love this, Melissa. And I am really looking forward to having the opportunity to spend some time with you!! She Speaks … here we come!

  2. why is it so much easier to believe the lies that i tell myself over the Truth He says about me?

    • exactly the dilemma I was facing when I wrote that post…and I really think
      it is because we are rendered so ineffective when we believe the lies that
      the enemy works really hard to make sure we do.

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